Infinity Is Our Actual Body

Infinity is our actual body. Non-local awareness localizes itself in the form of a temporary unit of awareness. The timeless appears in time, the time it takes to bat an eyelash becomes what we designate as a human life. What makes it “our” life? Identification with an individualized unit of awareness, one equipped with spiffy apps like “me & mine”. These apps are designed for navigational purposes in the denser dimensional realms, realms of duality such as the one we are currently, seemingly, touring.

So far, so good. The glitch in the system arises when there is exclusive identification with the navigational apps (body-mind), to the point in which that artificial persona construct is mistaken for our actual identity. I say glitch, but that is just another conditional interpretation for verbal elaboration. Perhaps another name is curiosity, which is another name for desire, which is another name for love. Love is Spirit, and Love is the way God plays. Yes, we are being played. Played by That. That which we truly are.

Nevertheless, and regardless of our transient judgments, identities, beliefs or illusions of control, what is, simply is. Regardless of our flights of poeticized euphoria, whatever we add to that is still something extra. When “what is” is enough, gratitude flows naturally, and regardless of any ambient bustle, deep silence pervades in all directions.

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Our Purpose

Discovering one’s purpose for being, for living, has been a fervent goal of profound and sometimes desperate human inquiry since we began the process of self-reflection. This fundamental endeavor has been the subject of countless testimonies and treatises, popular songs, humorous anecdotes, theatrical dramas, and plentiful theories throughout the ages. Nevertheless, most seem to fall short when it comes to seeing the forest through the trees, to borrow an apt metaphor from the collective wisdom store.

Rather than belabor the obvious, simply put: our purpose is to be. Just that.

Your purpose first and foremost is to be you, just as you are. Mine is to be who and what I am. What I already am. To just be this, whatever it is, and however it may manifest in its momentarily individualized stream of beingness. Clearly, we are already doing a great job at fulfilling our purpose, regardless of any judgments we might subsequently project in our diminished capacity of mortal intellect. Indeed, failure to fulfill our purpose is de facto impossible.

Just so, we need not spend innumerable lives attempting to elaborate, exploit, improve or sanctify our immediate beingness, gradually making that whatever-it-is a more suitable candidate for everlasting happiness. Happiness is already our primordial state. Our natural soul state. Happiness is love, and love is us — in rest or motion, there is only that. We are all here now just riffing on that, improvising on our own essential beingness, as divine creators in the infinitely unfolding nowness of now and now and now. Right now, before we have to think about it, we are. Mission accomplished.

In our immediate presence, we tacitly fulfill our purpose. Already, before we ponder what it is, we are it, in its perfect is-ness. We can relax. Breathe. A long relaxing exhale for just letting go of what no longer serves us in being ourselves, surrendering all stressful reluctance to trust in that innocent simplicity. Awareness, just this — before, during, and after. Then, as creator beings, there is something we imaginatively add to or superimpose on this timeless perfection: experience. Many stories follow.

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Simple

There are numerous forms of knowledge which benefit from verbal elaboration, since the intellect must also be included and skillfully employed in our investigation of liberation, or the process of limitless spiritual expansion. Others need none, since they communicate their essential revelation intrinsically. “Meditation” is a practice often recommended as a means of returning to our natural harmony of body/mind, especially in the often challenging and stressful environment we currently inhabit. Beyond that, it is classically employed to tour more advanced states or frequencies of light, in the unfolding revelation of the Self to Itself. If we contemplate that revelation deeply, what do we discover at the root of Self-Realization? There is only Love, and Love’s luminous radiance. What then pertains at the root of Love — at its source and destination? The simple humility of unqualified acceptance. The mind of absolute trust.

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Only Love

Love is love. There is only love, and whatever appears otherwise is none other than that which has yet to be recognized as love. Nothing can lead to love, since love is already the nature and condition of all arising. That which seems to obscure love is unreal. How can the unreal obscure the real? Even the idea of something unreal, over and against the real, is unreal. If that is understood, then this is not mere word play.

Only loving is real. Being is loving, to be is to love. All are innocent in love’s fair play. Every cause and effect is just one piece, one string, of loving. It may seem as if myriad events are happening, as if multiple worlds are being born, even as other worlds have already passed away, without even a wisp of a lingering memory of their existence. Really, nothing has happened, except the play of love itself, engaging itself in its own delight, with no trace of self or other in the infinitely blossoming flower of now, the unborn light, blazing through eternal night.

The free reception and transmission of love is the essence of our respiration, as is any resistance to love our compounded suffering. Wherever or whenever we are not in love, that is where and when we are still not seeing clearly. The ‘I’ which seeks to acquire and control love is the chief impediment to its actualization. Of all the unreal constructs, the ‘I’ is the trickster, be suspicious of its claims to reality or not. Love makes no claims. It is prior to any claims, prior to ‘I’, and yet it also manifests as ‘I’. In the presence of such ineffable love, the only thing to do, is to fall completely in love . . . with all of it!

We seem to see things now through a dim flicker of Love’s Delight, but that flicker builds, when we truly tend it. It can become an all-consuming flame, scouring every illusion of unlove from our hearts in the glad furnace of surrender to that ever-new Delight!

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Ready

Once we were a small condensed particle, a pulsing cell within an enormity which was itself a mere fraction of something even more immense, something utterly unimaginable to the human sensibilities. What held us together, what lives us forever, was a mighty force of the spirit divine for which we’ve made up countless names, but here for the sake of plain speaking, we may simply call it “love”.

When that divinity (pure joy, irresistible shine) spontaneously achieved its maximum blissful intensity, the ensuing explosion flung us out into the vastness, forming great spinning galaxies from love’s own glorious excess. In the midst of this infinite celestial expansion, some of us merged and blended with each other, creating even more of us to illuminate the vastness of the velvet void with gleaming sparks of supernal radiance.

Why is it the that even as we appear in the midst of it, we invariably come to believe we are separate from the whole of it? Perhaps just to see what that sense of distance feels like, that imaginary contrast? When we close our eyes, it may even seem as if we are standing still, yet in the solar scheme of things we are moving at tremendous speed.

Each thought is like a stationary planet flashing by, barely noticed in the rearview mirror as we continue spiraling onward – one streaking beam of clear light effortlessly dissolving in luminous space. Without resort to any discernible reference point or focus of fixed identity, all our dreamy conceptions of being bound, trapped, or limited in any way are inevitably set free of themselves by self-obsolescence. Cling to nothing — that is wisdom. Cherish all, that is love.

Zooming down to the planetary playground, children chase and call each other in games of inspired fun, laughing freely, bursting with keen delight, completely unconcerned about how they even came to be. Maybe we too can try relinquishing our consuming demand for certainty and relax for a while in blessed non-locality. We need not waste another moment of this fleeting adventure and rare opportunity struggling in a chronic contraction of boredom, doubt, and discomfort, engaged in perpetual conflict with our own innate cluelessness. Instead, we can enjoy it as the gift it is, this life as it is, this presence which persists from heartbeat to heartbeat, breath to precious breath.

Even should we find the answer to every why and how, our souls may pine once more for that far country of not knowing. After all, is it not the lure of the Unknown which gives life its compelling attraction? Our curiosity brought us here to imbibe in this long-running Mystery, and so we return to form and its fictions again and again, until we’ve finally exhausted the storehouse of matter, energy, time, and space, and are ready for something completely different. Ready at last to come home.

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The Three Poisons Considered in the Light of Delusion

Greed takes a good long look at itself. Made of mind, fed by mind, of no enduring substance other than an uninspected movement of desire which doesn’t know of anything beyond itself and so can’t stop, it suddenly sees itself in action, its own essential emptiness manifesting as the fruit of selfish thought, like a wild saxophone taking over the stage at the expense of every other thought which only longs to lose itself in the seductive music of virtual reality, to fall back into the gravity of its own imagined source and disappear. This is how it self-corrects. Recognition is liberation, just as liberation is delusion.

So too for hatred — in the mirror of itself it sees itself, its present hateful countenance. In the glare of its hatred it scares itself. It actually would like to just sit down with a fat glass of Bourbon and a Cubano, take the shoes off and enjoy the looming crash of breaking worlds it has set in motion, but hate gets no rest, there is always more to hate, more watered-down whiskey and cheap tobacco dives where the grumbling is thick and they keep the lights turned down low.

There too in some seedy old shack is found ignorance. Ignorance can’t recognize itself, for if it did it would be transmuted into wisdom, and that would strain the credulity of greed and hatred, so it simply goes along to get along, ignorantly, until wonder of wonders it spawns that magical child, delusion, though it knows nothing of it. It revels in the singular pseudo-bliss of itself, even while its offspring populate the dream with creative characters who bear a striking resemblance to ourselves.

Because delusion is dream-like in its arising, enduring, and eventual vanishing, it cannot be said to have any fundamental reality. In that sense, it is a paradoxical mystery that courses beyond the comprehension of any intelligence which is subsequently formed by the coincidence of swooshing cerebral fluids, sparking neurons, and ripening causes and conditions to approximate some imaginary phenomenal center that serves as a subject entangled with numberless whirling objects, all dancing without purpose in the immensity of an infinite impersonal void.

Never can it be said that it is mine, that it is my self, that it is what I am, because what I am is the basic aware space in and as which everything seems to appear and disappear, though in reality nothing happens, begins, or ceases — neither greed, hatred, nor ignorance. This can be easily verified by refraining from identifying with any appearance, perception, feeling, memory, sensation, or mental fabrication, until nothing more can be realized or forgotten, and only then “what is” reveals itself, as it is — pure delusion.

Because it is pure by nature, delusion itself is spontaneously self-illuminating. Whatever the experience — happy or sad, vivid or dull — it is the precise form of our own awareness, exactly as it is being experienced, and thus it is perfect, just as it is, in the very form that it is. It is only our resistance to “what is” that creates the desperation of spiritual or material paths, schemes, and methods, which in turn only prolong the chronic neurosis of unhappiness, replete with greed, hatred, and ignorance.

Consider this: radiant light or murky darkness make no difference to the transparent sky of a vast and empty hologram. There is no higher or lower, better or worse. Neither praise nor blame apply, nor does the human persona’s judgment of right and wrong, good or bad. All delusion is equal in value, having no inherent value itself.

When seeing has no seer, hearing no hearer, and perceiving no perceiver, then awareness cannot be saddled with any identity, history, karma, personality, or even any fixed locality. Where is the sky? Who is the sky? When was the sky? Because nothing under the sky stays the same, the nature of all phenomena can be regarded as “impermanent”. Because there is nothing that can actually be grasped and designated “the sky”, the infinite space in which all appears, thrives for a while, and vanishes is itself no different than any other prop in a fictitious story told by nobody.

Silence pervades the three times and ten directions. “Vast emptiness” is only a provisional term intended to stop the tears of child-like dream characters. In reality, there is no such thing. There could never be. There is no vastness, no emptiness, no word. All of that is exquisite delusion. Even “exquisite” can be discarded, for if there is nothing, to what can it be compared? Unperceivable and inconceivable — that is what we are, yet we are greedy, hateful, and ignorant too. To imagine otherwise is delusional. Stay silent.

Silence is the Mother Principle, except that silence is not the absence of any sound. That sort of silence is only a relative condition, dependent on conditional factors, but true silence is not a state or result of any combination of causes, nor can it be an object to itself. Whatever can be devised by the marvelous functioning of the divine creative intelligence does not apply to that prior silence which is elsewhere called (by the deluded) the Absolute, the Supreme, the fundamental Basis.

Out of this no-thing — perfect silence — the whole grand totality of universal manifestation flashes noisily into being, expands to fill the entire cosmos with its cacophony, and simultaneously dissolves, without the slightest glitch or hesitation, and without the most minute particle or trace of a substantial self, except what can be superimposed on a non-event by the functioning of pure delusion. Therefore, delusion is the source of all identification, all mental formations, all emotional reactivity, all mirror poses and self-images, and any apparent perception of duality or non-duality. Truly, there is no way around delusion, for to seek such a way is the play of delusion itself. Stay silent.

When the mind moves, delusion is its function, its signal and its signature. Nothing that can be conceived, observed, known, or imagined is real. To subsequently establish or cherish some story about any of it is delusional, and so these very words are the adornments of delusion too. The ultimate expression of delusion is the claim, “I am this”, or “I am that”. From there, greed, hatred, and ignorance ripple out through the frequencies and are only resolved by collapsing back into the welcoming womb of delusion, then rising again and again in this perpetual festival of illusion as our playful dream creations which we conceptually designate as the self, the world, the everything. So be it.

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Kindness

Part 1

There are many invisible beings who gather around us to enjoy our performance as a human in the running production called “Life On Earth”. Perhaps some of them tried their hand at it a time or two and so can well appreciate the level of challenge involved in just getting out of bed in the morning and moving about, doing this or that, attending to whatever business happens to come our way.

Our lives are made up of lots of little things that cumulatively amount to an artistic rendering of the play of light on water. Every little gleam or glitter can bring a smile of wonder, but what really pleases the spirit friends in the audience is any act of kindness. We typically judge ourselves too harshly, so being kind to oneself is already a great accomplishment! Our kindness to others is just an extension of that original kindness.

Eventually, we may come to realize that there is no difference, that the sense of separation between self and other is just a trick of perception, but in the meantime, we can notice how any act of kindness makes us happy, no matter how seemingly trivial. It just feels right, and that tells us something important about this life, and why we came here.

One of the easiest ways we can choose to be kind to ourselves is by occasionally slowing down a bit and taking few good deep breaths. Sure, that recommendation has become almost a cliche, but we usually get so caught up in things that we forget to just breathe. We are often surprised by how much tension we’ve stored up in our bodies when we finally take the opportunity to relax and breathe deeply.

When we feel the stress drain out of our system with each full exhalation, we can understand the basis for all the yogas and meditation techniques, because the breath and the thought stream are so connected. Since it is thought which spawns the chronic contraction we feel in our bodies, learning how to relax our minds is essential to our well being. Refusing to dwell on our passing thoughts is a primary meditation, and can be a true kindness we bestow on ourselves and each other.

Even when all the external sources of stress are removed, we can notice that consciousness itself is stressful, and so relaxing from the energetic compulsion to entertain and identify with its arising display in the form of thought, memory, perception, or sensation can bring us to a place of deep rest. From this spacious depth, kindness can manifest naturally and spontaneously, without any artificial effort or idealistic motive. That’s also when love becomes unconditional, because it is no longer an attempt to achieve the bliss state, but rather arises as a manifestation of it. That is true kindness indeed!

12/15/16

Kindness

Part 2

If we realized, all the way to our molecular or cellular basis, the interdependence of all existence, kindness would be our natural function, and peace our natural disposition. We only need remind each other to be kind when there is the uninspected assumption (seemingly confirmed by experience and the teachings of this world) that we are separate and independent material beings, time-bound, and vying with each other, often violently, for mundane resources, in the midst of measureless meaningless suffering and ultimately chaos.

Here, almost everyone imagines that some sort of independence or distance from the whole of life is their actual condition, simply by virtue of being marginally self-aware. The ensuing sense of lack or loss of felt connection with our divine source is even at the root of a musical art form called “The Blues”, when expressing that ache of loneliness.

Consciousness assumes form, but then believes it is that form exclusively, adrift in the midst of competing non-selves. This case of mistaken identity makes for the kinds of dramas we witness and participate in as co-creators of this reality system. The persistent illusion of separation is part of the woven fabric of this dream world within which we immerse ourselves as soon as our dream feet touch down on planet earth.

Starting right from that holy moment, we can practice kindness and transmit peace — everyone we meet, regardless of form or frequency, is simply ourself, in different costumes. This is an essential truth about consciousness: it is indivisible. This need not be a secret.

Looking into our own DNA . . . once unlocked, all the secrets are revealed, but there is a deeper secret still, deeper than blood, more fundamental than the life force, though the life force lives all things. Some say it is an open secret. Even if we know the names, that is not the secret itself. It is closer, closer than the next thought. This is how the secret reveals itself. Intimately.

1/24/23

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Index of Essays

In Chronological Order, First to Last

True Inquiry and the Conscious Process

Direct Experience

The Game of Rejection

The Quest for Experience

The Pursuit of Happiness

The Game

Evolution of Consciousness

Tests of Mind, Character, Will

The Silence Behind the Mind and True Transformation

Survival and Personal Continuity

Desire, Fixation, Non-Dwelling, and the Heart

Fighting the Powers That Be

The Sense of Lack and the Master Game

The Journey

Zen and the Emotional/Sexual Contraction

The Myth of Enlightenment

Religion

Self-Destructive Thoughts (Revised 2014)

School of Life, Play of Light

Beyond the Language of Seeking and Knowing

Taking Offense

Self-Improvement Projects

Deconstructing the Story

The Practice of Non-Dwelling

Discipline of Silence

How To Change

Shaking Others Awake

Points of View

War and Peace

Fate or Free Will

What Am I?

First There Is a Mountain

To Do Something

Stages of Human Spiritual Development

The Corpse of Ambition

The Ten Thousand Idiots

Battle of the Sexes

Mindstream

Self-Essence and Identity

Rhapsody on the Perfect Enjoyment of Delusion

Getting High

True Inquiry, Part 2

Notes from the Other Side

Prison Planet Samsara

My Dog’s Better Than Your Dog

Suffering

Beyond Religious Provincialism and Scientific Materialism

Views

The Pursuit of Happiness, Part 2

Self-Realization

The Futility of the Search for Meaning

In Search of Self and Beyond

Emotional Intelligence and Skillful Living

Aversion Therapy

Stronger Than Fear

Surrender

As We Think

Nothing Personal

There Is No Truth, Only Dreaming

Memory Lane

Where Can I Be Safe?

Sabotaging Ourselves

Stop Pretending

Waking Up, Growing Up

Consciousness and Awareness

Rafts

Pain and Spiritual Practice

Joy of Unknowing

Emotions

You

Not Me

View and Conduct

Time Is On My Side

Nobody There

The End of the Seeker

Just Be

The Mechanics of Unhappiness

The Paradox of Inherent Perfection

Saving the World

A Brief History of the Dream

Like Burglars

Science and Spirituality

True Meditation: Recognizing Basic Sanity

The Motive

The Mystique of Freedom

The Talking School

World of Warcraft

The Ego Is My Friend

Though We Might Call It Love

All That Matters

Guilt

Religion, Part 2

Sadness — The Wound of Love

Gratitude

Lest We Be Judged

Meditation on Death

The Fundamental Space

Experiment

A Little Joke

The Shadow

Individuality and Oneness

Self and Other

All Is Well

 Projection of Mind

Like Lightning

Standing Up for My Values

Stung by a Scorpion

Poverty

Essence of Mind

The Aware Space of Immediate Presence

Withholding

Virtual 

12 Tips for Souls Preparing for Upcoming Earth Missions 

Ignorance

Being and Doing

Alone

The Purpose

Kindness

The Three Poisons Considered in the Light of Delusion

Ready

Only Love

Simple

Our Purpose

Infinity Is Our Actual Body

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The Purpose

The wise report: first we awaken in the midst of the dream, then we awaken from the dream itself. One way to understand such transformational mechanics is: first we realize that we are not the character we have presumed ourself to be, the human persona fashioned from thoughts and memories, emotions and sensations. Rather, that character is a role we have been playing, like a “Method” actor.

Nevertheless, the play goes on. Eventually, we may come to realize that the play itself is more like a convincing illusion, an absorbing theatrical production. As such, it represents an impermanent and non-binding modification of consciousness, which has no substantial reality beyond the narrative we have been granting it, based on our ever-changing angle of vision and the conditioning which co-creates it.

Of course, as long as that is a mere intellectual recognition, the dream still has power over us, even though we might imagine otherwise. The contraction persists — the knot at the heart, the excuses, resentments, the rationalizations, judgments, the self-deception.

However, when we really see how things are, as they are, then we realize directly that the whole production (including our role) is a virtual and transient reality, our own dreamy projection and display — utterly empty of any inherent and enduring substance.

That’s not the end of the matter however, because we are still making a distinction between the real and the unreal, and moreover, our heart has not yet broken open. When we realize the emptiness of both self and phenomena, of any identity or position, the ancient conflict within our being subsides.

But when our heart breaks open in a love unfathomable, and our feeling being expands to include the totality, humbly embracing all of life’s poignancy, terror, and wonder — so impossibly beautiful, fragile, and even devastating in its mysterious appearance and disappearance — we may finally begin to get a sense about the purpose of this birth.

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Alone

All manifest and un-manifest universes glow like little lit lanterns strung across the firmament of night, itself a figment of the light, and beyond that, more light into light, no longer an earnest rehearsal for light, but light itself, which is love, and more than time or space can hold, our own innocence and natural truth. Even in this dim harsh density, it shines forth as the immortal font of wisdom, radiance, and bliss — our fundamental condition and divine inheritance.

Why then, how then, can we ever feel alone? We feel alone because our native connection to the divine light has become obscured by the pressing business of living in this objective world, contracting our vibration down into the seeming solidity of psycho-physical boundaries. We can’t find our way home. In the very midst of this calamity, however, there is something interesting we can notice. Appreciation is possible, and genuine appreciation leads to gratitude.

After the tightness of physical embodiment, we can appreciate so much more vividly the open spaciousness of our immortal freedom. In this humble circumstance of materiality, we can come to appreciate who we really are, by directly experiencing what we are not. We are here to learn to appreciate love by experiencing non-love. We learn to appreciate our connection to the divine, the source of light and love itself, by experiencing the illusion of separation.

The only truly sane thing to do with this life then is to expand our perception of our prior connection to the luminous divine, until all obscurations are seen through and discarded, and what remains is this immediate Presence, this eternal love. We can little by little or all at once, relax into that and be taken, taken by that which lives us, loves us, now and forever, Amen.

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